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Post by Epiphany on Jul 27, 2013 14:16:21 GMT
Count me in on this whole Omega-3 thing. My mom's friend said that it would be very useful for my anxiety and depression as well as my anhedonia and PSSD. If it does help, I will let everyone know. You will know when I start Omega-3 and my progress with it. This may be the answer.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 28, 2013 1:47:04 GMT
Breathing much more slowly than usual scared the shit out of me tonight. But here I am...okay....better than I was earlier. I hope it doesn't continue.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 28, 2013 13:48:31 GMT
I hate not having emotion...although at moments today, I felt blunted sadness. Grr! Whenever I feel something, it's BLUNTED! It's really frustrating. Trying to keep faith in my emotions returning.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 28, 2013 20:06:00 GMT
Feeling moments of extremely blunted sadness, not deep enough to call it full blow depression, but deep enough to call it a sadness. I'd say it's about 30-40% around. Why is it sadness that's around? I feel like everything I do is a failure of some sort.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 29, 2013 0:09:20 GMT
Feeling light today. My body feels lighter than usual, almost like I lost a whole ton of weight [which I have], but it's an odd 'light'. Almost like lightheadness through your body...a weightlessness.
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Post by petu on Jul 29, 2013 2:51:48 GMT
Feeling moments of extremely blunted sadness, not deep enough to call it full blow depression, but deep enough to call it a sadness. I'd say it's about 30-40% around. Why is it sadness that's around? I feel like everything I do is a failure of some sort. Its the withdrawal. Its not real, its neuro-emotions. These feelings a NOT you, they will pass. You are a success. Everything you do is a success because its you living your life, or maybe more accurately, life, living itself through you. Omega -3 seems to help a lot of people and there is some really good research on it. Start slowly and build up because in withdrawal, some people can be sensitive to it. Your sense of 'lightness' sounds nice, I hope you have a good day.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 29, 2013 2:55:44 GMT
I have been trying, Petu. I'm headed to bed ASAP. I'm doing research on Omega-3 and starting slow when I DO start because it does increase anxiety in some. I never usually take supplements, so I imagine I'm sensitive. My mom says my receptors are wide open, which is probably true.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 29, 2013 3:35:38 GMT
Completely panicking right now....it feels like someone snapped a rubber band in the right side of my head, it was extremely painful, and now I'm seeing some floaters and it's really making me shake. The sensation was triggered by blowing my nose. I've had a clear MRI....and I can still type. Things I tell myself when panicky. I'm really nervous right now...but I can type.....that's a good thing. *inhales*
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 29, 2013 14:13:16 GMT
Alright, back to normally numb today. It sucks so much.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 29, 2013 14:37:31 GMT
Disregard that last post. Now I'm feeling blunted sadness, most likely situational. Mom's sick from her own med WD. She's getting off of 2 meds, one of which is Welbutrin, and I tried telling her that she should taper slow but she prefers to listen to doctors. I feel bad for her. I'm by myself right now and feeling really lonely. The thing is...if I was NOT anhedonic....I would be feeling 10x the sadness I am feeling right now. The fact that I felt true fear last night means that my emotions are beginning to come back. At least it isn't a tidal wave of emotions, or else it'd be much worse. I'd kill for my old life, I truly would.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 29, 2013 22:09:37 GMT
Very neuro upset and 'blunted' sad right now, in which I noticed that during this episode my DP got really bad. It's situational anger/sadness. I hate the position I'm in at home right now as well, stuff in my life is not the greatest and it's NOT WD related.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 30, 2013 1:16:41 GMT
Thinking of all of the progress I've made in 2 months, and it's actually quite significant in the scheme of things. At the beginning of my taper and at the beginning of getting off Zoloft, I could not even sit AT A COMPUTER without having a panic attack. I had to be on my iPod. I only stayed up until 8/9 at night because of fear, apathy, constant fatigue and no drive to do something. All posts on PP and other sites were made with my cell or my iPod. 2 months later, I'm back on a computer, back outside my bedroom, and I can actually write poetry again. I'm actually taking part in a poetry camp beginning tomorrow, AND I'm on a computer all day, just like I used to be. All of this in TWO MONTHS. It's actually great progress. If only the anxiety/anhedonia/other stuff will go. But with little 'emotional' blunting moments, I have a feeling it's beginning to.
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Post by petu on Jul 30, 2013 2:01:00 GMT
You've made great progress in 2 months. Its difficult to see it when we are focused on all the current symptoms still going on. I'm the same.
I hope you enjoy your poetry camp tomorrow, that sounds like fun.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 30, 2013 12:47:03 GMT
For my EEG tomorrow, I basically have to stay up all night. I have a camp tomorrow....this is gonna be crazy. I thought it was gonna be today but my mom had it on her calendar wrong. Thank you, Petu! I hope I enjoy it too. I have bad muscle cramps, I think I'm dehydrated a bit. I ate some Special K cereal to hopefully up on nutrients.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 30, 2013 14:04:52 GMT
Actually had a moment of genuine sadness today- after reading David Healy's website. I felt about 40-50% sadness...in my stomach and body. I got off of the website, reading it would make me fear I would never recover and it would just make me sadder. I'm back to normal right now, but the genuine sadness shocked me.
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