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Post by Epiphany on Jul 27, 2013 21:24:18 GMT
I hate anhedonia. I have no pleasure in anything, not even the things I used to love doing and honestly, it drains most of the will and patience I have left. I keep fearing that all anything's gonna do is get worse and I hate having that fear. I also fear that I may have to live a very long time like this, years, possibly permanently. I can't take it. PSSD is also draining a lot of will I have left and as far as I know, that's permanent too. All I know is I really fucked up and for all the good I do for people, THIS is what I get? I don't deserve it. Sorry for ranting so much today, it's just like...how much of this can one take? I don't see a really good way out of this.
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Epiphany
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Post by alex on Jul 28, 2013 23:47:32 GMT
Epiphany, the "neuro-fear of NOT healing is a common symptom in w/D.
Have you noticed that? especially in early w/d.
EVERYBODY has the feeling that this is gonna be forever.
And ALL the evidence shows that it is not true
The BenzoBuddies article says this very clear: we all have the same symptoms, because the brain knows what to do with this particular knind of injury.
I can tell you: I am very scared too, but there is no doubt that I HAVE SEEN IMPROVEMENT.
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Post by Epiphany on Jul 29, 2013 0:06:52 GMT
That's great that you have seen improvement, Alex.  We are all in the same boat together! |
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Post by petu on Jul 29, 2013 9:52:59 GMT
I'm also scared, on a daily basis that I'm not going to heal and that I will feel this way for ever. But then I look back on what I wrote 3 months ago, and remember how bad I was a year ago and I can see that my symptoms have changed and some of the more severe ones have stopped.
But still, in some weird neuro way, I feel like I'm not improving.
Like Alex wrote, neuro-fear of not improving is common. But I think our false perceptions that we are not healing, in spite of evidence to the contrary is also a common feature of withdrawal.
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We are all in the same boat together! 
