Post by alex on Jul 27, 2013 16:54:08 GMT
I am in my 1 year off mark today.
I v'e been thinking about writting an update, but my poor english and
apathy makes it hard.But I'll try my best.
First of all I would like to say that I have lost the sense of waves
and windows;all I know is that despite my fear about this process, some
things are getting better.
It's like symptoms overlap;some get better, others get worse, but
with a slight improvement overall.
Also my "neuro-fears" about w/d changes: a few months ago it was
about the terrible insomnia, then sexual problems;this last one I try
not to even think about it because I don't even have a partner...my
girlfriend left me again.
Now I'm dealing with depression, anhedonia, and my personal situation
doesn't help.I am a 60 yrs old jobless, lonely man.
But I have to say that some things have improved, and I've had
moments where I've felt almost normal...windows??
The symptom that has improved the most is anxiety and dysphoria.I can
deal with daily stressors now without getting that awful panic-anxiety
feeling.
My concentration has improved, now I'm able to watch more tv,
interact with people, w/o getting the anxiety feeling.
My apetite is better;I put up some weight (little) I am doing some
exercise with weights, walking 45 min. almost daily.
Even insomnia is getting a little better, I guess...I get asleep
easily and even though I wake up through the night, I get back to sleep
with no feeling of anxiety.
I can get 7hrs or more of broken sleep, but I do sleep!I don't know
if I am healing or coping better, or both...
I am a singer, and my voice has been affected too.Has anyone have
changes in the voice? this symptom makes me very sad.
As I have said before my situation has changed from "terrifying", to
"very difficult" and in the last months to "difficult"
I don't have almost any physical symptoms,only tinnitus, (low) and
smell hypersensitivity, getting better (maybe)
Well, this is about it; I have to fight apathy and brain fog to do
anything, but I do it.
My hope is that things keep improving this second year of w/d and
that this will be a lesson not to take things for granted like I used to
before AD came into my life.
So I think that despite my fear and waves of hopelessnes, I am having
and overall improvement.
Thanks to everyone
I v'e been thinking about writting an update, but my poor english and
apathy makes it hard.But I'll try my best.
First of all I would like to say that I have lost the sense of waves
and windows;all I know is that despite my fear about this process, some
things are getting better.
It's like symptoms overlap;some get better, others get worse, but
with a slight improvement overall.
Also my "neuro-fears" about w/d changes: a few months ago it was
about the terrible insomnia, then sexual problems;this last one I try
not to even think about it because I don't even have a partner...my
girlfriend left me again.
Now I'm dealing with depression, anhedonia, and my personal situation
doesn't help.I am a 60 yrs old jobless, lonely man.
But I have to say that some things have improved, and I've had
moments where I've felt almost normal...windows??
The symptom that has improved the most is anxiety and dysphoria.I can
deal with daily stressors now without getting that awful panic-anxiety
feeling.
My concentration has improved, now I'm able to watch more tv,
interact with people, w/o getting the anxiety feeling.
My apetite is better;I put up some weight (little) I am doing some
exercise with weights, walking 45 min. almost daily.
Even insomnia is getting a little better, I guess...I get asleep
easily and even though I wake up through the night, I get back to sleep
with no feeling of anxiety.
I can get 7hrs or more of broken sleep, but I do sleep!I don't know
if I am healing or coping better, or both...
I am a singer, and my voice has been affected too.Has anyone have
changes in the voice? this symptom makes me very sad.
As I have said before my situation has changed from "terrifying", to
"very difficult" and in the last months to "difficult"
I don't have almost any physical symptoms,only tinnitus, (low) and
smell hypersensitivity, getting better (maybe)
Well, this is about it; I have to fight apathy and brain fog to do
anything, but I do it.
My hope is that things keep improving this second year of w/d and
that this will be a lesson not to take things for granted like I used to
before AD came into my life.
So I think that despite my fear and waves of hopelessnes, I am having
and overall improvement.
Thanks to everyone
I also have anhedonia and apathy along with PSSD [Post SSRI Sexual Dysfunction] and it is something that will go away in the future. Hang in there, we all will get through this. 
