struggling to get off of meds

Instead of copying my whole journal I thought I'd copy some of my intro from IAWP with some changes added:

I was originally prescribed ADs for situational depression/anxiety brought on by stress.  I had been trying to slowly taper Zoloft (first tried a 10% taper, then 5%) for several years only to get hit with major withdrawal issues - usually related to a stressful circumstance - and have to updose. Last year updosing didn't seem to help so out of desperation I switched from Zoloft to Celexa (and added 1 mg Klonopin which I had successfully tapered off of a few years prior). I have now been on Celexa since January (and still on 1 mg Klonopin), upped the dose 2.5 months ago to 35 mg. At the increased dose, am experiencing constant headache. I have been trying to stabilize on Celexa and have a few days here and there feeling fairly normal but aside from the headache have also been having quite a bit of depression/anhedonia/suicidal thoughts. I also have had an aversion to food and am finding it really hard to eat much - have lost quite a bit of weight.  Some nausea in there too but so far has been mild and transitory.

I was trying to wait this out to see if my brain would adjust to the Celexa but there hasn't been much change so I am going to attempt a very slow taper down.  I am scared about this process since I am already feeling fairly unstable as it is but don't think I have much choice except to try the taper at this point. Also have a lot of fear because my last slow tapers were unsuccessful and I am stuck on a benzo. too.  

The good news is that I reduced to 34 mg almost 1 week ago and no major changes to report. 

Going at this rate, I'll probably be 80 and still posting on this journal!  

Thanks for your post and kind words, Epiphany!